Charmaine Chew

change of route

2009-03-17T23:03:00.002+08:00

hello everyone.. this will be the last post on this blog address of mine
you see, for the longest time i had this address but recently
i noticed how long it really is so i decided to shorten it
but still retain the essence of the meaning behind the blog address

if you have not figured out by now, my blog address is made out of the words

the chronicles of Charmaine
however now i have changed it and shortened it to become
Charmaine blogs..

get it??

anyway, this address will be kept till the end of march then it will be deleted..
i will let another Charmaine enjoy her chronicles then..

all updates will be moved here

bye all
see you at
charmaineblogs.blogspot.com

do not say the word "blood" in front of me.

2009-03-16T18:22:00.002+08:00

whatever you say in my face is ok as long as you do not say the word blood
i hate everything about blood except how great it is
blood just make me think of everything terrifying and horrible

i was a young girl and my mum loved to watch gory surgery shows and every time i watch a scene that is blood filled like a battle. i get weird pains in my chest area and i feel like releasing acid reflux.

till this day, just the thought of blood makes me want to faint

all this talk about blood is making me feel a bit woozy
gosh i gotta stop

anyway what word do you hate when people say and makes you feel out of your comfort zone?

i tag
emma chew
alex
kok keat
shirley chew
and you if you want to

till next time

xoxo
charmainechew

passionate obsession

2009-03-11T00:30:00.001+08:00

i had my first make up set when i entered college and i had almost no clue as to how i was supposed to use it

but soon as i used it i got the hang of things

and although i am no pro, i do believe that a little make up can bring a big impact on your face

so i was in a cam whoring mood today and i whip up my make up and begun

i was rushing so i only took a few

as the tittle suggests, i have a slightly passionate obsession with make up now

it all started during the holidays and it has taken me by storm

now, everytime i go out, i feel obliged to have some make up on my face

this has put me in trouble as i always make others late

but i believe that i have to make an effort to look good so as to allow other to see the hard work i put in to meke myself look presentable

i have accumulated a rather small group of cosmetics and they wanna make a guests appearance on my blog

the black box (the color workshop)

from watsons jusco

lilan vital lip palatte

from cosway

lilan vital lip and eye palatte

from cosway

lip palette

eye palette (loves it)

elianto blusher (loves it)

ipoh parade

eye palette in shades of brown (loves it)

100 yen shop

o'balla eye shadow powder

kampar bandar baru

VOV eye shadow set

kampar bandar baru

yet to try

i have been applying make up a lot recently so i suppose maybe i will be appearing more in pictures with make up on

*i have learn to apply eye shadow through observation, the internet and through experiments carried out on my own face and the secret to me is to blend well and use sufficent amounts only

thats it for now

xoxo

charmainechew

tagged i'm it

2009-03-06T09:47:00.002+08:00

what did i do now?
i was innocently looking at my sisters blog and she got tagged
i skipped the whole shebang and i saw my name
so tagged, i'm it now

just skip this if you do not to tags
and see if your name is there..

001. Real name → Charmaine Chew
002. Nickname(s)→ minnie money
004. Zodiac sign → aquarius
005. Male or female → Female
006. Elementary → Tiny Tots and tadika perpaduan
007. Middle School → MGS
008. High School->MGS
009. College School --> stuck in beautiful kampar (tarc) is just great
010. Hair color → asian natural color
011. Long or short → i call my hair bob.. cause its in a bob (overgrown)
012. Loud or Quiet → ....
013. Sweats or Jeans → jeans
014. Phone or Camera → camera phone (evil chuckles)
015. Health freak → ...
016. Drink or Smoke? → drink and smoke (secondary smoker)
017. Do you have a crush on someone? yes... me... hahahaha...
018. Eat or Drink → starve to death (sarcasm)
019. Piercings → ...
020. Tattoos → are nice but not on me

FIRSTS:
023. First piercing → ... path could not be found...
024. First best friend → mei yin and all my kitchen mates...
025. First award → 3rd in class.. (whatev)
026. First crush → an ant on my arm.. hahaha..
027. First pet → my younger sister
028. First big vacation → the toilet..
030. First big birthday → when i was 1 duh...

CURRENTLY:
049. Eating → air
050. Drinking → blood...
052. I'm about to → stop this tag
053. Listening to → spontania ft yuna ito ima demo zutto
054. Plans for today → the usual
055. Waiting for → nothing

YOUR FUTURE:
058. Want kids? → no.. i am the devil that will end mankind.. (evil laughs)
059. Want to get married? → i am god..
060. Careers in mind → to be used by society

WHICH IS BETTER IN THE BOY/GIRL YOU LIKE?
068. Lips or eyes → best don't have both..
070. Shorter or taller? → non existant
072. Romantic or spontaneous → spontanious combustions of romantic porpotions..
073. Nice stomach or nice arms → unrelated
074. Sensitive or loud→ like a jet plane
075. Hook-up or relationship → same right?
076. Trouble maker or hesitant → hesitant troublemaker..

HAVE YOU EVER:
080. Lost glasses/contacts → me?? no... perfect vision till now..

081. Ran away from home → no.. me is good girl..
082. Held a gun/knife for self defense → yes.. in an arcade..
083. Killed somebody → yes... in my dreams.. i killed you
084. Broken someone's heart → me?? no..

085. Been arrested → right..
087. Cried when someone died → i was too young to understand..

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
089. Yourself → a little too much
090. Miracles → cool... no
091. Love at first sight → r u kidding me?
092. Heaven → yea and gods ass above us
093. Santa Claus → is for geeks and nerds..
094 Tooth Fairy--> i wanna get that bitch.. she did not even take my tooth last time..
095. Kiss on the first date -> i'm asian... no

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
097. Is there one person you want to be with right now → erm... unrelated
098. Are you seriously happy with where you are in life → yes...
099. Do you believe in God → no but i'm hating being under his ass
>.< 100. Post as 100 truths (i post it as how i want... my blog..)
and tag 10 people:
i'm lonely and have no friends

i'll tag
shu yi
shu jun
elaine ang
alex
chrys lee
you

dun ask for more..
you hear??

(random tag post.. never meant to waste your time)

xoxo
charmainechew

my housemates are so sweet

2009-03-03T19:45:00.001+08:00

quickie

it was the same weather again today...

swen yee and thelo bought pizza for me so i don't have to go out for dinner in the rain..

though i had my dinner already..

but it was so sweet...

it says:

to, shu min

swen yee belanja *smiley face*

are you hungry??

*chuckles*

stuffed crust too.. wow

thanks swen yee and thelo

hugs and kisses

on another note..

nadia went to sabah during the semester break

and she got for me and my older sister these stuff

its called kuih cincin

and you can only get it at sabah

and she got bracelets for me and my sister yi

imma wear them once i can

on the side note.. i got my assignments now.. so I'll have to do them soon

meaning 24/7 Internet but probably zero blogging for a while..

toddles

xoxo

charmainechew

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names that sparkle

2009-03-03T11:11:00.000+08:00

it was really a day to get sick today

it was really hot in the morning and afternoon

and really cold later in the day

just like

Katy perry's

hit song

hot and cold

everyone is really sick and feeling ill

even I got the fever last week

anyway, my older sister has gone for training so that's why her blog is left like a ghost house

me and my younger sister have had the whole of the remaining semester break all to ourselves

we went and watched 2 movies with dad and mum

1st was

the curious case of Benjamin button

we sat through a grueling 2 hours and 45 minutes

and by the time it ended, we so could not feel our behinds

amidst it all, it was a nice movie

2nd was

kung fu chefs

this was shorter but it was too short, I didn't really like it that much

also, we wanted to watch something else but it was not showing in TGV ipoh

so we settled for this instead

today is

Monday

and I only had

1 class today

at 11am..

the current notebook that I am using is not yet set up with wireless

so have to be bored most of the time..

did a little retail therapy tonight..

I bought these little darlings

for no reason, I wanted to get something for

baby sister

I know she likes

pink

and that she has almost everything

so it was a bit of a struggle

but I got her this at the end

must be in pink

as we (we as in me and Nadia) were bidding the store goodbye.

I had the urge to get one for myself too so I did

this is what I got

but I got the band in

green

just cause it

S p a R k l e S

my sisters know that I'm the idiot who is

obsessed

with

everything that sparkles and shines as well as plastic jewelry

overall, it was an interesting month

lets hope for more fun in the coming days of life

my favorite quote from me

** I hate knowing how far I am from you

xoxo

charmainechew

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trips during semester break

2009-03-03T11:06:00.001+08:00

during the previous semester break..

i had a trip with my family to Maxwell hill

everything about maxwell hill is synonymous to haunting's

infact, the place we were supposed to stay in was

although not haunted

but felt eerie

believe it or not, i would not have gone through the night without my biggest sister

we both had trouble sleeping eventhough we were all sleeping at the living room

my parents as well as my youngest sister were asleep so nicely

enough about that, lets move on the the fun we had outside

and i got photos too

weeeee....

3 posing for the camera

do you dare copy what we did?? *chuckles*

lone ranger

*cowboy music plays in the background*

typical her, always super big eyes don't believe me? fine

frantically searches for proof

this photo is not related to the trip

see i told you

*said in satisfied tone*

*shouts* next..

miss disgruntled and unsettled

super upset looking la

*tries hypnotizing her to smile god-damn-it*

*sobs* everyone has such good hair..

mine is so.... *screams....*

(continues to overreact)

*laughs* and sets it as desktop wallpaper

i was posing like that because i was scared of the slide

we had to climb up a slope to get there, scary

confirm big eyes pose la..

*sighs*

found a titanic like rock

so went sot lo

before still going smooth..

even stopped for a few poses

for end results look at the face to the left

*damn tired la wei*

end of trip photos

on another note: i am loving the duet between spontania and yuna ito

the name of the song is called ima demo zutto (now but always)

and lily Allen has a single called the fear

and that song is not bad either

do check it out

toddles

xoxo

charmainechew

firefox is cute

2009-02-25T22:43:00.009+08:00

as you know, internet explorer is heaven for virus
so i decided to switch to firefox
i had safari and Oprah before this but after a while i got bored with it and loads of problems started to happen

anyway, i downloaded the latest version of firefox right from its website and i saw an interesting button so i clicked on it and i got the most wonderful thing ever

i had no idea (up till then) that firefox had themes

the link to get you theme if you are firefox is here

below are the few themes i downloaded
click on the picture to have a larger view

1st is
g-fox theme:

2nd
vista nature theme:

3rd
foxkeh theme:

this is my favorite

firefox is more fun now,
thank god for it

so what are you waiting for?
start personalizing your web browser today

xoxo
charmainechew

tv shows

2009-02-19T15:54:00.002+08:00

as you all know, i am having my semester break and i am offically addicted to everything with a screen

so that means that i have been watching tele a lot

at 8am there is a show called the nanny which i love
but every weekday, i look forward to watching jon and kate plus 8 the most
everyone is just so cute

there are some of them that are super easy to recognise like
aaden cause he is the only one with glasses
and hannah cause she is a bit chubbier and has longest hair

but i just cannot differentiate between joel and colin
and alexis and hannah

cara and maddie are easy

i just love the show so much
its kinda sad for me cause i'll be going back to college soon and no more tv..
haiz..

oh well

xoxo
charmainechew

Room arrangement (2009 version)

2009-02-16T22:58:00.001+08:00

**this post was supposed to be on at sunday,
sorry for posting so late

Today I woke up and to my surprise
I was the first to wake up
Then my parents woke up and finally my youngest sister (Ah Bee) woke up

Then like all Sundays, we went out for breakfast
And there was major road block all over town from the DAP event
(no show la the DAP thingy, went there and the SWAT team and police all ready then after a while they
pack and go back)
I’m not really sure where we went but there was this stall there that sold like
“tai kau min” with lots of other stuff inside,
I ordered the one with cheese and ham (really yummy and totally addicted)

Then Ah Bee pulled me aside and told me that
The dude that was making my addictive and finger licking cheese overdose temptation food was
Ah kitt

This ah kitt is a guy (obviously) that was trying to court Ah Bee
And she told me
So as a concerned sister (as if)
I caught a glimpse of his facial structure for a tiny millisecond
Total failure of epic proportions and I was just not curious enough to try again

When we came back home
I did the usual housework which involves
* Boiling water
* Washing clothes
* Washing dishes

then later, I had to iron my sisters uniform for her school next week
as I was ironing, I realized how much dust that was in my room
and how unorganized it all was
so after ironing, I swept the room and vacuumed the floor of my room
I also wanted to mop the floor but was too lazy too
And it was hazy outside so I figured dust will get in anyway

Then I proceed to rearrange my bed units which initially consists of
¨ A comforter
¨ A pillow
¨ A bolster (small)
¨ Another pillow (small)

I arranged them in many ways and decided I needed another pillow (small)
Since my older sister went to Penang yesterday
And left her bed units in the cupboard, I decided to take her small pillow and use
As a show piece and not for use
And I did

As nightfall came,
I still was not really fully satisfied with everything yet,
So I did this:
*there is a spare wood plank in my room and also
A small coffee table,
I put the wood plank (which is slightly bigger than the coffee table) on top of the coffee table
And tucked the table (now slightly bigger) into a corner
I went outside and asked my mum if I could have a stool from the living room in my room
And I used the stool and table and put my laptop on it and start to type

Overall I am satisfied with my room now,
Ah Bee said : you are so happy now that yi is gone you start to change everything hor?

I really am
I will text her on this and hope she is not mad
There is still space for her bad so not much t worry about there

So I’m going to sleep in my bed now
It looks so nice
I don’t have the heart to mess it up
(§ Oh well I can still make it again tomorrow§)

xoxo
charmainechew

14/2/09

2009-02-14T15:10:00.004+08:00

a happy valentines day to everyone
hope the world will continue to love like this everyday of the week

may you all be drowned with roses and kisses (hersheys)
may teddy bears fresh from stores be by your side today
________________________________________________________

ps: my oldest sister has officially gone to penang for her training and
1)i have the whole room to myself for a few months
2)i also have the laptop to myself for a few months

pps:my dad went to genting yesterday and he will return home tonight (late)
i sure hope for something from him but i suppose nothing from him is also ok
and i hope he got something for my mummy too hehe

♥love is in the air♥

xoxo
charmainechew
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

i went, i saw, i didn't do much

2009-02-11T21:37:00.002+08:00

is there something in the sir about semester breaks or holidays generally that make you super happy?

i have that feeling but somehow i was raised into a family that was socially pleasant,
i am like the most unfriendly person i know (really)

cause i am having my semester break now till the start of march and i really did not go anywhere significant enough, although i have been to ipoh parade more times last month and this month than a year total if that counts..

anyway back to the point, i am really super unfriendly, you will just want to give up trying for real..

you are probably thinking
"oh she has a sister, she won't be lonely and all, what do i care??"
yes i do have sisters and no brothers,

my youngest sister is uber popular and my oldest sister is not so popular but better compare to me.. my parents? do not even go there

they get the most phone calls and what not and their life still it filled with friends..

maybe i will just die a old hag after all and nag at those cats that pass by my property (sarcasm)

anyway, i went to ipoh parade again today, super unproductive, i just bough 1 item.. the rest is junk..

you wouldn't believe it if i told you what i bought..
i got a eyelash curler after using cosmetics for 2 years now..
well still a newbie..

oh ya and my older sister will be leaving for her training soon and i will really be a haggish cat screaming old nag..
i have to go and do laundry now and i gotta sleep now so byezz

xoxo
charmainechew

boring days and creative ways

2009-02-08T20:36:00.003+08:00

honestly, today me and ah bee (emma) were supposed to go to kampar but
transport went haywire so plan was canceled,
we sat at home in my room and we were whining about how bored we were,

every 5 minutes we whine to each other,
so i asked my dad if we could go anywhere but he was busy so we were back to
square one again,
then my ah bee became a smarty
she took out hair stuff and played with it on my hair,

her artwork on my head

she took out her temporary dye and start to spray on my hair
i hate the fumes,
then she got more and continued,

then she did my brows in temporary dye too
which i then showed my parents and they laughed

next thing you know, i was painting her toe nails black and we drew on each others feet,
it was so funny and it made time pass.

(my feet)

my feet (chemy subject on it)

the girl was supposed to be me (total distortion)

(ah bee feet)

she less than three her feet

this is proof that its her feet cause her name is on it (emma in japanese)

she requested for toe drawings so
i gave her a boy on her right and
a girl on her left

later she went and became a fashion designer,
this is her
bored/death collection 09..

flowy top with huge glasses and hairband (so "in")

hairband with chunky necklace

it was overall fun enough for me

so now
HAPPY THAIPUSAM!!

xoxo
charmainechew

rainy days and internets

2009-02-02T20:15:00.002+08:00

imagine this situation, its a rainy night outside and as soon as it started to get lighter, you go out for one of the 3 important meals of any day, when you were on your way there, you are hit abruptly with heavy rain that seems like it came out of nowhere. what do you do?

well, i was faced with that exact situation and this is what i did in point form

- i went to eat dinner
- i finished dinner
- i waited for the rain to settle down a little
- the rain did not settle down
- i went to a cybercafe to kill time
- i blogged

haha... stupid

hope you have a good laugh

xoxo
charmainechew

where there is a will, there is exams

2009-01-05T22:04:00.002+08:00

don't deny it, i am scared of exams and so are you, every human being is, (except the nerds and geeks of the universe)

i have got 4 exams to go through this time round,

i have accounting which i increasingly hate

as always, the rule for me to get to year 2 is to pass all my repeat subjects,

best of luck to everyone and me too

on another note, i cannot wait for semester 3,

just repeating 1 subject

its a computer subject which gives me more reason to hoard the computer

however my sister will be gone by then, so fight with who about comp??

me?? can meh??

oh and one more last thing

i know silky smooth thin straight hair is "in" now but i really do not like it,

playful curls are ok to me

however there is one hairstyle that no machine can ever copy

its hair like mine

virgin hair

un-chemicalised, un-everything

just washed, cut and given lots of TLC

BUT THIS ONLY GOES TO GIRLS!!

no guys please,

i hate guys who just have like super long hair

cause

1) i envy them

2)i hate the fact that they got longer hair then mine

3)they are guys, long hair is so not guyly to me

lastly) they look good on some guys not all

don't they know that only anime characters have the right to look weird??

back to straight hair for girls

my "friend" (i hope she still considers me as one) had her hair done and gosh,

i could not recognize her

she looked so

good

and she seemed so boyish that the last thing you would expect her to do was

to do her hair and she did

gosh,

whispers

(* virgin hair is good,

virgin hair is good,

virgin everything is good,

virgin mary has good hair*)

haha well,

see you all soon

ps: i was so surprised to see my nuffnang and found out that there are people from as far as mexico reading my blog:

pps: welcome everyone of all race..

till next time

xoxo

charmainechew

(sorry for the lack of pictures)

♥ the earth is now filled with people who are patiently waiting for 2009 ♥

2008-12-31T23:14:00.010+08:00

there is no doubt that 2008 was indeed full and never boring for me

lets take a look at how 2008 was for me in pictures

2008: semester 3

i was not repeating and was having a blast with myself, i was aware of the repeat status so i tried hard to pass. however you know the ending

2008: semester 1

i found out i had to repeat and my first subject to repeat was japanese

i was totally into the subject and my love for japanese songs grew. my first japanese song was from yuna ito (endless story). when exams came i was all がんばてください (ganbate kudasai) for myself and i scored (DUH!!!)

2008: semester 2

i had to repeat 4 subjects, they were ↓

⇒ accounting

⇒ marketing

⇒ hotel management operations

⇒ food preparation

* lucky for me i had practical to go through again.

i was the manager as picked by ms julie♥

the first time i managed the restaurant as a manager was mixed for me

i was lucky because

*i could set the standard

*i had the advantage of knowing my members more

*i could actually make this happen

i still remember my happy ways then.

*the girls*

*and the boys*

it was fun having these people!!

*omg i didn't realize till it was too late..*

then as always, a storm brews from beyond

on the 15th of december at 8.20pm

i was called a bitch by one of my members

from then on i realized with the help of another member about my mistakes

still i did not change

this year, my aim is to change

obama can do it so can i.

2008: personally

i loved the times of semester 1 (repeat)

mainly because i can return to kampar on tuesdays not sundays/mondays

but besides that, i can spend more time dining on my mothers cooking

life was easy then to me

on another note, i personally found an attraction to write again

that was when

THE CHRONICLES OF CHARMAINE

was born with my first post tittle: durian love

now as i look back on all the songs, memories, pictures and events of 2008

i seem so exited to welcome on 2009

lets make fire out of water and let everything go.

۩۞۩ if fire was made out of water ۩۞۩

cheers to 2008,

はじめまして (hajimemashite) to 2009.

xoxo

charmainechew

(as at 11.55 pm 31st december 2008)

2009

happy new year everyone

2008-12-31T09:04:00.002+08:00

as i am writing this, it is already

31st december 2008

9.05 a.m

and i am using the college wifi

besides that:

my hostel toilet is broken (unable to flush properly)

my hostel does not have wifi reception due to DNS server not responding

i might be spending new year with my sister @ kampar

i have to brace myself for exams

i know that my birthday falls on a exam date

i will most probably change classes next semester from dht5 to dht3

i know that someone likes my sister although i don't think it will work out, i still wish them all the best

i am psyched for new year

i may try to stay up tonight

i have presentation @ accounting classes later @ 5

i am happy with the year 2008

i had tones of downs emotionally this year

i hope 2009 will be better

xoxo

charmainechew

happy birthday thelo

2008-12-23T22:58:00.003+08:00

for those of you who do not know who thelo is,

she is my housemate in my hostel @ kampar

her birthday falls on the 27th this month

her roommate swen yi bought a cake and we celebrated with the whole house

simple one la

i got 2 pictures:

the cake!! chocolate yummy!! ♥

the birthday girl!! only gt 1 pic ♥

on another note:

my youngest sister has come to kampar again for a visit, we will be going to a friends house on wednesday till friday. so i will not be celebrating christmas with my family this year.

another this is:

new year is coming, so as always, i will want to forget all the bad memories that happened this year. i want to forgive and forget. so if you have anything that involves me doing something bad towards you, i am sorry. ♥

to my practical group members and everyone from my class:

MERRY CHRISTMAS & HAPPY NEW YEAR!! ♥

xoxo

charmainechew ♥

love to have sales (quickie series)

2008-12-14T18:56:00.003+08:00

as you all know, the whole of malaysia is now in sales mode, i joined the mad crowd due to fate..

i went and told myself that i will not but anything but i did.

last week i went and say this hoodie, i wanted it so bad bt didn't gt it

bt this week i went again to the same place and it is still dere, so buy la..

oh ya, do note my haircut

and the ring that we all are showing,

we all gt de same 1

i'm the one with the hood on.

xoxo

charmainechew

2008-12-10T01:36:00.002+08:00

♥ The earth swarms with people who are not worth talking to ♥

there are just some times when you feel really happy with certain groups of people

and then depressed with another

i am sort of used to this kind of situation

i practically face it everyday

when i am with my family and good friends

i will be so happy that my dad will say

"you live a happy life"

however the same cannot be said when i am not exactly with my family

i will feel sad, depressed and loose all strength and energy to go on

i really do wonder why

sometimes i think why i treat people differently

i am proud to say that i do not have any enemies on my class now.

i don't hate anyone and i hope nobody hates me too

i know that

♥ The earth swarms with people who are not worth talking to ♥

but maybe i am one of those who are not worth talking, mixing or even trying to be friends with.

i don't know

life as a repeat student has been hard and easy

semester one was easy

semester two is still a emotional tidal wave

i still feel like something is missing

i cannot find the joy with people like before

everything else just seems depressingly hard

i know i am making friends that otherwise i will not even talk to

that makes me happy

but the sad thing is that i cannot even try to be happy as i was before

i seem so sad and it comes easy

i seem to pity myself more than before

i still remember when week 1 on semester 2 just started

i was really happy then

i really was

now, i just lost that cute, friendly, happy go lucky me

i know that unless i find my mistakes and do right

i will plunge deeper and deeper into where i am now

darkness is coating me till no sunlight is within my reach

i am alone in this battle

i know that

everything depends on me

my future lies in my hands

i control my destiny

i must at least try one attempt.

when that does not help,

i can safely said i tried my utmost best before letting go with ease

ANGRY CONFESSIONS!!!

2008-12-04T11:14:00.002+08:00

warning:

i am not in the best mood.
i am going to burst.
do note that i do not care about anything while i am writing this.
and i am angry.
duh tittle.

I have a confession to make. I do not care if you like it or not cause in the first place. This confession is not something that you should see and get angry about. I do not care if you say I am blaming everything on you and not me like I am princess innocent or something. Hello, I am writing here so of course I will say I am right and you are wrong.

Here is the bit, I am so sick and tired of having to watch my mouth when I know that I cannot hold my face from emotions and what not, I will no longer care anymore. I will shoot whoever I want according to paragraph. You better not complain and show me the stupid face and give lectures like I am a little kid or your kid. Geez, if you do not want to continue then fine by me, I am giving you time to close one eye and not see this. If you do see, be warned because I have warned you, clearly.

I am just so sick and tired of practical and all the pretend feeling that I get like I belong or something and then when practical is off, you all just show your ugly, evil, conniving faces and attitudes to me, ya sure I deserve it but the least you can do is do it behind my back. Or you are just too scared like a freaking chicken? To scared of what I will react like? Hey ring ring, if you can do it behind my back and get away with it, then why not do it in my face too? Just because you are scared of how I will react? So lame excuse mind you.

Let’s start okay? We will start with the so called “why is it always me who gets misunderstood?” hello, if you always get misunderstood, then don’t you think that there is something terribly wrong with you? Change you idiot. Don’t just act like I am innocent and I did nothing wrong, and it is not my fault that people are praying on me cause I am always right. Sorry to say, if you are always right, then this is your first mistake, choosing the wrong members, didn’t your innocent always right self tell you that I was going to be major trouble? Huh?

Next, to clear things up, I really tried, you cannot deny the fact that I did try to make friends, you all were the reluctant one, all eight of you, did you not see how you “miss I always bully my brother back home and beat him up till my mum gets so sick of it and does not want to do anything about it anymore?” Hello, you said you like orange, I get it, and I asked you way back when I was manager for restaurant practical why you like orange. Remember? Oh right, you got selective memory, like me. Gosh. You just replied, because it is nice. Hello miss obvious, if it is not nice to you, will you pick it as your favorite color? The answer is: NO!!

Then you went the extra mile to tell you how much you hated my socially retarded friends who actually cared enough to really be my friends. Err lets recap okay? I wonder who was it that asked me to turn against those friends of mine, oh you. Both of you did. Wow I am smart.

Besides that, you said I should stay away from those two silly girls and I did. I actually did and I found myself lonely cause you said I should stay away and obviously I expect to mix into the group. And the reason for my failure. Err. This is hard let’s see. YOU!! You never make me feel accepted at all, if anything, you made me feel more rejected than any time in my whole existing life. Sure I stayed away from them like you told me and I like a stupid robot followed your instructions and like a stupid robot ended up cold and lonely, but I have to thank you for making me realize how bad you really are.

Yes, there was a gap in your evil plan to destroy the repeat student just because you can. Ya there was, though I was alone in the class, I actually mixed and no I did not feel so lonely, I am a human being, I am not born with social skills, then I should be used to being alone right? YA!!

And to add insult to injury, who was the one who got played at like a doll? I played and acted like a fool just because I have to watch my mouth. I may not have mentioned your name but you should know who you are. And to those whose name I did not mention, and then consider yourself in my good books if that will make you feel any better that you already are alone.

I am just really sick of all this things, I have to think really deep before I speak and even when I speak, you all act like I am invisible and non- existent, sure I am a repeat student, I am not supposed to be there, but I am. The least you can do for me is to make me feel like I am a part of the group. If you were tested on this, I will surely make sure you fail in this.

Lucky for you it is not a test, but I have said what I wanted so far, rests assure that it will not be the last whisper for me. If this continues, I might just be able to publish my own book. I did not say it has to be a best seller, but still. You heard it first from me. Beware and careful where you trod .

xoxo

charmainechew

bffs

2008-12-01T15:16:00.002+08:00

there was once when i thought i was friendless
then you came along and i know now that we are no longer alone
i can be myself in front of you
i can make all the noise i want without being stopped

to: nadia

whatever did today did to me so i can live each laugh and tear and hand cram with you?
i do not want to know
i thought i was alone till you came along
thank you so much..
love you to bits

but to the others, don't worry, you still are my friends..
you all hold a very special space in my life..

but nothing comes close to my family

♥dad, if you see this post...
your little girls
wish you a very happy birthday, hoping for more happy birthdays to come,
each year, a little more closer than the last
each day, a little more attached,
each hour, missing your loving grace.
each breath thanking you for my life.
to my only loving dad, thanks for everything that you and mum gave.
priceless..

xoxo
charmainechew

friends and bookworms

2008-11-26T12:10:00.002+08:00

what are friends actually?
i know i can get a clear idea of what they are in wikipedia and thesauruses that i have but i can never seem to get the clear idea of what they really are..

there are those people who go through everything with you regardless of thick or thin... are those friends?
or are those what you call family?

are BF's people who share almost the same interest as you ???
i thought that was sisters..

what are friends exactly?
i for one don't know really
maybe they are like your second family
away from your family, like in college, university and so on

maybe they are just like you and me
wondering what they are when the answer obviously lies in front of their eyes,
only, they have this disease that makes them disable to that...
prolly i am one of them..

on another hand, I'm totally obsesses with:
XHTML Character Entity
they are like the best thing i every discovered since this morning

i have been able to make shapes like
&hearts &dagger &Dagger &diams &loz and a whole lot more

i have put up some sites where you can learn a few of them

down below
&darr &darr &darr

http://www.elizabethcastro.com/html/extras/entities.html
http://www.google.com.my/search?hl=en&q=XHTML+Character+Entity+Reference&btnG=Google+Search&meta=

thats all from me for now..
i'm having my mid term so i won't be blogging for quite some time
i have to hit the books

xoxo
charmainechew

&hearts muakz &hearts

a happy ending

2008-11-21T23:45:00.003+08:00

finally i'm done with the most emotional ride of my life
i finally passed up my food assignment.
now looking back, it was really emotionally heavy for me as a person
there were like endless discussions, a lot of temper trantrums from me,
tones of patience, a long list of good songs heard,
a bucket full of joy and cuteness
but nothing can compare with the one ingredient that binds us all together.

credits to
mr andris wong wai foo
for being such a good leader,
for being so patient with my tantrums thrown
for being so great and
for just being you

ms yik shan
for being a good friend
for being someone to me
for being understandably angry
but mostly for being someone meaningfully and painfully good

mr jeffery koo
for being forgiving
for being so good to me
and just for being the frst to talk to me

mr weng chee and huah seng
for being part of the group
basically the glue that pastes the gaps
and for just being with me on the way to completion

ms poh san
just for firstly being uber cute
for showing great passion to something so fake in realization

ms fi mun
for being the first one to accept my friendster request
for sending me a comment although it was factory made, it meant a lot to me
for being so friendly and being the best supervisor yet

ms maggie
for not being mad at me no matter how many times i get your sir name wrongly spelt
for being the keepers of all memories great and unnoticed
for being great and so good to me

i really have no regrets except for a few bumps from me.
if i could change anything at all, i would pick you all over anyone else anytime
but mostly i will not change a thing, everything i went throught with all of you has somehow warmed my cold icy heart,

thanks for everything

xoxo
charmainechew

2008-11-19T22:52:00.002+08:00

i am really stressed now
who knew aiming for an a even with a group was so hard and annoyingly out of reach most of the times?

i have been really pushed to the limits till every little thing can make me so annoyed..
i'm pushed to the limit like crazy now... utter and complete stress just makes me go crazy
i am almost turning into the guy in the pic above

i am going so crazy that i can compare
used to be a few songs den i'm calm
now... even a few songs cannot relief the stressful feeling

haiz...
stress... you can't live without it but you cannot live with it either...

totally damn frus now...

xoxo
charmainechew

holiday

2008-11-17T21:58:00.002+08:00

i am just very tired now...

PLEASE DUN TRY TO GET ME OK??
I KNOW YOU DON'T GET ME SO STOP...

JUST STOP THIS ALL..
WHAT PART OF ME DO YOU NEED TO KNOW??

LATER I'M GOING TO BE YOUR BIGGEST ENEMY
WE ARE ALL USING EACH OTHER...

PEOPLE WILL JUST ALWAYS TRY TO BE NICE TO ME AND WHEN I DO NOT BE NICE TO THEM...
THEY SAY I FUCK THEM..
SO WHAT??
CANNOT HELP IT I DUN WANNA BE NICE TO YOU...
SULK DEN GET OVER IT...
GROW UP ALREADY

xoxo
charmainechew

weekend

2008-11-17T11:38:00.002+08:00

this week has been one of ups and downs for me personally,
last week was just going downhill and everything that could go wrong did go wrong
this week is just the start and i really do not know what will be..
i hope that this week will be better than the last.

many things have happened
i have been changed
physically, i got a haircut
emotionally, i feel sicker
mentally, i am weakened

i just cannot seem to get my things organized the way i could before
assignments are supposed to be given out this week but i am not even close to ending that chapter just yet.
everything is in a mess and misunderstanding after misunderstanding is really slowing down the progress of my team
and what is more bad than that you may ask..

easy. i no longer can grasp reality, turning into fantasies as source of life, constant dreaming in my classes are not helping me nor my grades
the realities i face are tough and i go through emotional machine cycle every time.

when will this be over
reality bites and it hurts
fantasies i seek are not enough
i guess i just have to stay tough.

i really am confused for now..
part of my sorrow i leave to ponder here..

xoxo
charmainechew

i am a failure

2008-11-12T12:42:00.002+08:00

i had presentation today and i was bloody nervous..
i just stood there and as i speak i was so careless..

my mistakes were magnified...
and i felt like i had to cry...

my members were defenseless and so was i..
the longer i stood there, the more i died...

i looked around to distract myself..
i failed miserably without a doubt..

as i walked away back to my seat..
shameful with ego down to my feet..
i was so sad, no emo could defeat..
i failed, i failed, yes indeed..

class was over and i walked back home..
my sanctuary was closer than it seems..
i opened the door and i was all alone..
i wrote in my blog and i recalled..

i recalled how i was ok..
individual presentation could not weaken me
no way..
but as i realized how bad i was..
i searched desperately for the cause..

i feel like crying but no tears would omit
inside I'm dying, that fact i cannot keep..

xoxo
charmainechew

what have i become?

2008-11-11T14:31:00.002+08:00

i just realized this with the greatest sorrow of my life. and i keep thinking to myself of course, who am i and what have i become? i truly have no answers to this. i grew up thinking i was gonna be teacher like my mum, but as we all know, there will come a time when every girls aspirations is to be someone. some one well known, some one famous. basically anyone else besides themselves.

then it hit me, real hard. i was for once regretting my past choice. i was once again a little girl who wanted to be just like her parents. i was lost, for once in my life and from there on, i didn't want to be anybody, the only thing i wanted to be was dead. i know while growing up and what not that i had very little friends, i trusted nobody but me. i believed in anything but the truth, to me then, lies were like crystal meth, the were the purest form of delusions and fantasies that i was never really aware of.

now as i stay here all alone in my room, my mind wanders far away and i have become this thing i hardly knew back then, i would like to think of myself as a cunning, silly and dubious avenger but that is the exact thing that i just did not want to be. i grew up thinking dreams were plots for revenge towards anyone who did not follow my wishes or my plans, i felt hitler-ish, i knew i could make people suffer my wrath but i did not know that i would eventually bring this to my pre adulthood

i have hurt and deceived and despised anyone i could, it was in the year on 2004 that i finally woke up to all the mistakes that i have done. it affected me deeply but not deep enough, i am still that person i was, my dreams get me high and they are an extension of me. i have dreams about things that do not make sense and i have dreams of deep fantasies.

is that what i have become? a dreamer that hates everything that is not hers in credit and avenges everyone?

nightmares still come to me
in nightmares i always see
things so crude and crazy
is this really coming from me?

dreams so great i used to have
so great that i would pee in my bed
but now those dreams have gone forlorn
tell me where do i belong

i would smile if i was supposed to
even if it hurts inside
i would cry if i was supposed to
even if my sorrows were far behind

i play the role of me so well
yet there are many a things i cannot tell
like how and where and why i am here
and why my memories are so dear

xoxo
charmainechew

Erreurs

2008-11-05T01:34:00.001+08:00

Every human being imaginable will make mistakes in their lives. I am a human and so i am not excluded from this group. Today, I made a mistake
For those who do know me very well, you will know that I am a repeat student. This means that i have to repeat year one and pass all my subjects that I failed to get to year two
For those who do know me very well, you will know that i cried in college the day i knew i had to leave my friends and join the juniors.
My sister will know that I tried hard to fit in, i did get a few good friends and life was good to me, i was actually happy to repeat.
I now know that when i went on to semester 2, i start to show myself as myself. I was just the old me
I now know that i was happy and jolly yet nobody noticed me.
I now know that i am actually still not over the fact that i am a repeat student

I showed my anger tonight to someone who should not deserve to get it at all but i did. And i did not stop till i finally left and the thought lingered. Then guilt set in and i as all humans felt a need to be forgiven
I am sorry tonight, i really am. However i am not sorry for one thing,
I am not sorry for friends who can really take my anger without the sudden urge to slap me and what not.

I made a mistake i swore never to do again long ago, i made a mistake
Tonight i am guilty as charged.

Ps: i have uploaded the photos that Maggie gave
The link is below

http://www.friendster.com/viewphotos.php?a=220867188&uid=49261398
xoxo
charmainechew

restaurant practical

2008-11-01T05:46:00.002+08:00

omfg i supposed that this weeks practical is like the best i've ever had or something.

yesh i was the manager and yesh my mates were Fabulous

everything was just like well

perfect..

there were a few kinks and knots on the way but we smooth it out.

thanks to ms julie too

i know i am the manager but i still dunno why i keep reporting everything to her.

hmmm...???

as always

after operations,

we all camwhored

and i meand we as in all of us

except pinyen.

i dunno where he went.

anywho, i had to do paperwork later on and if yik shan is reading this now..

hehe... yik shan, i put you as the best waitress for this weeks practical

cause while everyone was behind the bar chillaxing, you were still out there standing,

ok now my legs are still killing me but they do feel better already

i know this post is boring but i am waithing for maggie to upload the pictures on friendster so i can grab em all and eventually post it in my blog..

maggie please do hurry up!!

xoxo

charmainechew

confusion

2008-10-29T08:53:00.004+08:00

QUICKIE!!

since yesterday... i have been trying to tell myself that i am not goting back this week but i guess i just am not that used to it..

anyway, this week i took a super duper late bus back to kampar where my college is..

around 5 or 6pm

and it was deepavali aka diwali so as promised, traffic was everywhere..

there was this one spot near the medan gopeng bus station and it was really one of the best jams i have ever seen..

when we did finally reach the kampar bus station, the boss there quickly signed our ticket cause he wanted to close his office already.. it was about 7.03pm

(the boss has to sign our ticket for us to get a free ride back to bandar baru cause we r now in kampar old town n walking is a really long and dangerous way to go)

he told us to wait for the malim nawar bus

so we waited

(by we i mean a bunch of teens all wanting to go to bandar baru)

then soon a bus came

it was going to ipoh..

theoratically, a ipoh bus will still get us back to bandar baru (if the driver wishes to)

so we all boarded the bus, all assuming that it was going to turn in

but it didn't turn in and half way outta old town we were all outta the bus..

so we all waited at the tiny bus stop nearby

7.55pm

the bus to malim nawar came

it turned into bandar baru and we all walked back to our respective hostels

**what a day..

sorry i didn't post this on the day itself.. i was just too tired

(this happened on monday night)

i think i will never take a bus that is so late ever again

regerts..

xoxo

charmainechew

japanese

2008-10-22T12:24:00.003+08:00

if you did read my previous entry then you should know that i got an A for my japanese exams recently

well the formula to actually passing i will reveal now: this only applies to language subjects

1st of all... you need to actually fail the subject iself and hate it..

2nd.. by a twist of fate or just plain coincidence.. you are forced to restudy the subject (please make sure that i'll be the only subject you study at thet point in time)..

3rd.. act vunerable and remain open minded..

4th.. ask you friends who are experts in that subject for tips (in my case.. friends who are japanese anime and songs freaks)..

5th.. listen to thier advise and get hooked to all things directed to it naturally..

6th.. continue to get hooked untill the end or

6th.. adapt to it and influence your twin sister to get hooked to cause she will be going for the same langauge subject next semester.. (like me..)

there you go.. good luck k??

next subject..

well as u know i lurve yuna ito (the japanese singer..)

ahem... i found another japanese singer to listen to..

thanks to the freaks who adore japanese stuff again

her name is nami tamaki

nami tamaki

my freak first intro her to me during ping pong practise

since i brought my laptop darling there and there was good wireless

she let me see nami tamaki (reason) on youtube..

my view of it was horrid caus ei could not see anything..

anyway.. i completely forgot about her till one day i was looking at my bookmarks

and i saw her video again..

and fell in love again..

on to another subject again..

wireless in my hostel is so bad..

i like almost have to do my assignment research outside and in comp lab..

i mean whats the point of saying you gt woreless service and don't mean it???

i just found out tht most of the probles will be

a) local so cannot got on9

b)dns server is down

c)cannot find network

not just that...

my hsemate living in masterroom said that they have never been able to connect at all...

so as always i sympathise with them la..

all the cash they gotta foot out to do research..

nt cheap u noe??

haiz.. i really dun und the land lady too

she everything oso dunno must ask mr internet tan..

that mr internet tan damn bz..

she just dunno..

all she know is money

this sunday me n my sister wanted to go out do research cz no network

so we ACCIDENTALLY left our room locked with both sets of keys inside

so i called her to ask for spare lo..

she say gotta pay RM5 to give the key to us..

its like punishing us cause we like PURPOSELY left it in..

den on the phone she ask me supid question..

she say (in cantonese)

so you want to get the key from me or dowan??

of coz have 2 rite??

if nt sleep where??

hotel??

you pay ar???

silly!!

anyway i really dun think i'm getting my value for money..

so not fair you know

cause when i was in yr 1 of college...

nt this much problems to face..

haiz...

i still gt lots to talk abt bt better shtop here ba..

i noe you getting bored di... if nt bored oso my hands pain redi..

till then

xoxo

charmainechew

watashi no A desu!!!

2008-10-17T21:42:00.004+08:00

i totally passed my japanese with an A
hehe
duhness cuase its like the only subject i was repeating last semester
but i'm still proud of it
and i passed my ping pong too

the proof is in the picture

i have already put it up

xoxo
charmaine

ps: kisses to all just cause i can!!!

my old friendster blog

2008-10-14T08:15:00.004+08:00

i was looking through my friendster profile and i stumbled into my old blog in friendster which has not been updated aince april or something

i guess i kinda transition from there to here

if you wanna see the whole thing, click HERE

here are some pictures of it:

le olde blog

yayaya... well??

blue was my fav colour

wayyyyyyyyy back then..

(to be really honest.. i doubt i have a fav colour or i have it but i just dunno abt it.. cause i just pick colours that seem appealing amongst therest **GOLD**)

oh wow!!

i just realized the my current blog now (www.the chroniclesofcharmaine.blogspot.com) is more personalised then the friendster blog

anyhow, i really love this blog now..

i think it will stay for sure now.. no more moving

**sorry for not bloging for so long

cause i had ntg to blog abt..

ps: hope you enjoyed the posts abt how to molest guys and the difference between geeks n nerds..

credits to junjun-riko for the post on october 8th..

xoxo

charmainechew

difference between a nerd and a geek

2008-10-09T11:22:00.006+08:00

NERD

sources from wikipedia..

nerd means:

a person who passionately pursues intellectual activities, esoteric knowledge, or other obscure interests that are age inappropriate rather than engaging in more social or popular activities. Therefore, a nerd is often excluded from physical activity and considered a loner by peers, or will tend to associate with like-minded people

the characteristics of a nerd are:

lack of confidence
oblivious to the negative perceptions held of them by others
show interest in subjects that are considered difficuly
too mature for their age
show interest in activities that are considered immature for thir age
often potrayed as obese, very thin or unfit
portrayed to having obsessive-compulsive disorder due to extreme devotion towards rule following

most famous nerd in the world: bill gates

sorry to say i could not find anything for a geek but this may just interest you as it has interest me:

comparison between a nerd and a geek

from: http://www.web2learning.net/archives/316

Typical traits of a geek:

Very techie

Identifies with science

Into science fiction, fantasy, and/or cyberpunk literature

Possibly into live action role playing games

Possibly into BDSM

Possibly into graphic novels/manga, etc.

Knows how to program a computer and does it often

Has a blog *

Interested in popular culture *

May or may not have done well in school*
*omg i have all the asterik characteristics
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Typical traits of a nerd:

Reads a lot: philosophy, serious literature, science, history, academic subjects

Unusually excited, passionate, worried and/or earnest about intellectual matters that most people find boring or irrelevant

Got straight A's in school

Not interested in popular culture, except possibly in a truly anthropological sense

Prone to injuries associated with excessive or intense reading

lucky me...
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regardless of you being a nerd or a geek or normal, my blogs doors will embrace you with open links..

xoxo
charmainechew
(geek and nerd/normal)

wah!!!

2008-10-08T09:45:00.002+08:00
hahaha.. weird tittle huh??
yaya i know but i really dunno what tittle to put liao..
how??

hehe...
mui mui.. i always read ur blog de just you dun read mine oni ma..
haiz..

anyways i just done reading a few blogs and oso my sisters blog.. (bb sis)

and i stumbled on a interesting post.. i wanna follow that blog liao..

vv nice

its called

tips to molest a guy

credits to
www.unspokenlyrics.blogspot.com

tip no1

Use your eyes. It's the best tool to use without feeling slutty yourself. Stare at his private part as long and as frequent as possible. Especially in public places like during friends gathering or the LRT. It'll make him so self conscious bout his precious bro. Make the disappointed facial expression after a few glance at his private part, it'll crush him so hard he'll be home trying to lengthen his cock with a nut. XD

haha this one made me laugh and NO i have not tried it ok???

tip no2

Use what you have, boobs, sexy legs, whatever. During gatherings, try to expose a lil bit of your sexy body to the guy friend. Tease him a lil, then pull back. Continue this for a while, let him feel all tensed up. He'll have a hard time controlling his cock and his brain at the same time. Then at this time, you can touch all you want, he'll be too focused on controlling his highness to notice that you're playing a dirty trick on him, not to mention taking advantage of him.

haha.. sounds familiar huh??

tip no3

Got any handsome guy friends which you just wish you're able to get a taste of him? Easy. Play the open minded character even if you're not. Touch his arms and chest as much as you want, especially in public. He can't do much, after all, he's a guy for goodness sake, what can he do? Scream for help? That will be so sissy.

so very true.. but do not attenpt this trick if the guy is really sissy in the first place.. ok??

tip no4

Try groping your guy friend's butt in public. It'll definitely shock the hell out of him, but like I said, he can't do much, he's a guy. Don't try this too frequently, it migh ruin your friendship. Try doing it every once in awhile. He'll sooner or later take it as a joke and accept it, and you'll get free butt groping session eventually. XD

but what if he tak tahan den how?? only for the brave hearted ok??

tip no5

This is the last tips and the most extreme one. Do not attempt if you feel disgusted upon reading the 4th tip. Touching his private part! Go to public places, use the same old lame scenario, accidental physical contact. Rub or touch his private part, not too long, you don't want to send the wrong signal. Make sure to make it as if an accident. Make him go high in public places and see him blush. XD Try it in the LRT, stand near the pole in the center, hold the pole at the part where his private part will be, then as the train move, buffet touching. XD

but you gotta use the train ok??

those tips do seem to work in theory la..
but i have not experiment with it..
anyone who dare to do this..
i really respect you especially tip 4 and 5..

haha..
those that dare plz do let me know how your friend react(ed)

to:
baby sister

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you good la..
haha halau the yasmin till vv geng leh!!
i oso sked a bit la... haha jkjk
but you think worth it meh to react to her insults??
you leave her alone and just ignore her la..
like dat more annoying to her..
sooner or later sure sure she give up deh..
if she say you like chicken go eff everyone up so what??
not like she never right??
if she dare to say such unconfirmed truth
den she better have hardcore evidance
to prove it as well
this kind of people only want attention only la..
junjun vv popular di in skool n she is just like
using you to be popular oso what..
think about it la ok..
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1st she n you couple
(den she oso gt friends wanna take her away from you)
den she never defend you
nt she is the guy de meh??
den y like dat de??
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2nd she and you break den she always oso use the same trick to get back with you
(seems to me like using you to blame on things only la)
nah you se ar
she know she will not be able to be as popular as you when
she is not in anyway realted to you
so she use you and "tadah!!"
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3rd oni daddy know that you and her _____ right??
(but i'm thinking he told mummy too)
den both our parents oso no problem with her lo
den she saje nak cari pasal with the band leader
den make you gt fight summore
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4th over jor den over di lo
i know my bb sister de
she nt sked de..
anything oso she can handle de
(but sometimes lampau sangat a biddy bit)
i mean that yasmin maybe a tomboy bt so what?
she was still born as a girl
with boobies and vaginas as well as PMS right?
unless she do surgery la
but then if she do surgery and gt penis
she will still have girl hormones what!!
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yasmin
you can run bt you cannot hide..

xoxo
charmainechew

accounting fit (quickie

2008-10-07T10:23:00.002+08:00
its like the second day of college in week one and boy there are so many stuff to do with this subject called
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ACCOUNTING!!!

normally on week one.. there will not be any tutorials in my college but this week is all accounting and accounting and more accounting..

well... gtg stary accounting again..
chaoz babes

xoxo
charmainechew

1st day of college

2008-10-06T15:01:00.002+08:00
its now the first day of college and i am feeling the stress already

i so do not wanna change to dht3 cause i will not have any mates left then

i am like so sticky with this girl called grace cause of some weird reason that i myself dunno

well anyways i still feel like so lonely sometimes
i think grace is in lurve or something but i really dun wanna poke my nose into stuff like that
but i am tempted to

anyway just got my timetable today on the very first day of college
i was stressin about it before college started
cause normally we will get it before school starts
kinda weird

some sbujects changed here and there
and my sister (bb sister)
is totally broken up and patched back again
her personal life is like
100% more interesting than mine i swear
but her blog ain't is nice as mine to
hahaz...

i see all my friends going to year 2 and i'm stuck in year 1
i really miss my old friends
things will never be the same
so kids study hard and do not repeat
trust me on this

later at 4pm
i got another class
but i am like friggin free on wednesday
caus i dun have anyclass on that day..
and friday is my practical day..

haiz.. well better stop naggin..
and sorry cause there is no pics in this post..

xoxo
charmainechew

chaoz everyone

haiz..

2008-10-03T14:50:00.012+08:00

soon i am gonna return to college for semester 2 and i know that i already had a super long holiday but i still want holiday summore leh!!
hari raya is this week so ya i got a few photos from my younger sisters phone la.
some of them are not from raya, some are earlier but i am so lazy la so i postpone till now la..
pictures below:
long time ago the picture
eating at food court and watching the tv there hence the picture
at padang ipoh while eating at steamboat restaurant opposite
padang ipoh.. my sister (right) moved too fast.. haha..
playing at the playground yesterday.. wanted to play badminton..
but too windy lo..
me and my oldest sister at the fountain at padang ipoh.. acting silly la me..
me and youngest sister at the fountain..
2nd picture at same location..
at mcdonalds drive in
2nd pic at the same location
now for raya pics..
all took at my aunts mothers place..
my aunt is married to a malay and her kids are amazingly cute
but i didn't get them cause they were too busy lo..
camwhore at the porch..
thats all lo
xoxo
charmainechew
Jiexx..Don't Leave Me..Please..

life and how to interpret it..

2008-09-26T07:39:00.006+08:00

i was checking my inbox today and i had 2 e-mails form my mum..
yeas my mum n i share stuff together.. some of her posts are really funny but this particular one was funny cause it made sense..

have you ever break down before and feel like life is not fun anymore

and you just wanna go away somewhere else?
doesn't fantasy seem much better then reality most of the times?

its true we are not alone in the attempts to make our like better than it already is
but sometimes we just need help but it always never is around..

you see celebs and think their life is just a perfect fairytale you wanna live in..

you see how money can be the powerful source to resolve all our problems..

you sometimes wish that you were smarter..

wish that you were more popular..

wish that you are richer..

sometimes wish you were even someone else..

well the story below that i receive from my mum might just add a punch of humor in life..

enjoy ok??

Why are you working so hard?

On the very first day of the world, God created the cow.
He said to the cow: "Ah Gu (cow), today I have created you! Your job is to go to the field with the farmer all day long. You will provide the energy to pull things! You will also provide milk for people to drink! You are to work all day under the sun! In return, you will only eat grass. For that, you will have a life span of 50 years." Ah Gu objected. "What.. I work all day in the sun and I get only to eat grass! On top of that, I have to give my milk
away! This is tough and you want me to live 50 years! I'll take 20 and you can have the remaining 30 years back!" God agreed.

On the next day, God created the dog. He said to the dog. "Ah Kow (dog), I have created you for a purpose. You are to sit all day by the door of your master's house! Should anyone come in, you are to bark at them! In return, you will eat your master's leftovers. I'll give you a life span of 20 years." Ah Kow objected. " What! I have to sit by the door all day and will need to bark at people, and what do I get...LEFTOVERS...This isn't right, I'll take 10 and you can have the remaining10 years back!" God agreed again.

On the third day, God created the monkey. He said to the monkey. "Lao Kao (monkey), your job is to entertain people. You will make them laugh, act stupid and make faces! You will also do somersaults and swing on trees to amaze them. In return, you will get to eat bananas and peanuts.For that, I'll give you 20 years to live." Naturally the monkey objected. "This is ridiculous,I gotta make faces and make people laugh let not even come to the part about the trees and somersaults. Tell you what, I'll give 10 years of my life to thank you for my existence and I'll take 10.What do you think?" God agreed again.

On the forth day, God created humans. God said to the man. "You are my best piece of work, for that, you will only need to sleep,eat, sleep, play, eat, sleep again and do nothing else. You will get to eat all the best things and play with the best toys. All you need to do is enjoy all your life. For this kinda of life, I'll give you 20 years." Just like the rest, the man objected." What, all I need to do is relax and enjoy myself and I have only 20 years to live? Tell you what, you've 30 years back from Ah Gu, 10 years from Ah Kow and another 10 from Lao Kao and you probably don't know what to do with all those lifes. Why not I take them all and I'll have 70 years to live?"
God being such good natured, agreed with a smile.....

And THAT IS WHY..... We eat, sleep, play and enjoy for the first 20 years of our lives when we are growing up. Work like a cow for the next 30 to raise our family. Sit outside the door and bark at people for the next 10 when we are retired.And finally, we make faces and perform monkey tricks to entertain our grandchildren for the final 10 years.
GET IT !

i sure hope that made you laugh..
hey life is not easy and nobody said it will be but nobody said it will be boring..
life is fun with all the problems and all..
thats what makes life fun..
embrace every moment of life..
every bump and every smooth ride

xoxo
charmainechew

tesco at section 18

2008-09-21T20:27:00.003+08:00
omg today i went to what was the biggest tesco in malaysia

the conversation in the car went something like this la

dad: want to go tesco
emma: ok
me: go for what??
mum: giggles.. go for what??
me:blur

so we went and boy there were lots of ppl.. stuck like a can of sardines.. the situation was havoc..
you can see it in my youngest sisters blog..
she kinda explained it all..

anyway yesterday i followed my mum to a bookstore
she needed to get books for her assignment
so i looked around and then i spotted a book by lydia teh
its called
lifes like that

before that
i got a book by her too
called
honk if you're malaysian

best book i ever read..

i showed the book to my mum
me: maaaaaaaaaaa... can iiiiiiiiii??
mum: see first after i but my books first ok?
me: ok

later we bought it and i was super happy

we went home and thats it..

i changed my template again.. and i am thinking that maybe
i'll stick to this one finally

my older sister promoted my blog today
and my youngest sisters blog too..

i compared all 3 of our blogs and i realised how many posts i have
my oldest sister has 17 posts
my youngest sister had 13 posts
i have a total of 20posts.. (not including this one)
oh my..

hehe..
well.. than.. thats it for now..

oh ya.. my grandma might be getting a unit in the same condo i'm staying in..
she will come for a look (or to buy) on the 29th this month
dunno if i should be happy or sad la..
haha

xoxo
charmainechew

mooncake festival high

2008-09-15T21:14:00.007+08:00

i dunno if you ever try this before..

try putting a candle on your fingernail (thumb)
and then let all the wax drip on your finger..

i tried it yesterday
when we had a moon cake festival celebration..
it hurt at first then it soon gets normal..
then it gets high a little..
and your finger get a little numb from the pain..
just something you gotta try..
i cannot explain how it feels..
just emo-ish..
thats all i can say!!

i still cannot transfer pictures yet from my phone..
lucky i got some from my youngest sisters phone
above is one of the best pictures from her with me la!!
or rather the only one with me..
and i used it as a header!!

overall it was hot as all moon cake festivals are cause of the heat from the candles and all..
it was fun..
but i am not really a fan of the moon cake itself you see..
i just happen to not like the taste of it..
don't judge me form that ok???

next topic...

my sister had some complications with her relationship and all..
and i am proud of her for still standing strong!!

back to moon cake festival..
i will try my best to upload the photos as soon as i can..
if i can get the USB before i delete em all..

for now..
bye

xoxo
charmainechew

ps: yuna ito's song (miss you) is still ringging in my head!! loves it!!
and its now on my playlist

NIGHTS!!!

my old house

2008-09-13T20:57:00.009+08:00

today i went back to my old house
here is what i did there in point form

entered the house itself
saw slipper prints on floor cause very very dusty
looked around
took some stuff back
surprised to see that door leading to balcony in parents room left open

next.. we went out at the porch

pick up junk mail and letters
went to a spot where got pungent smell
still pick up letters
some letters brown and gt smell..
turns out got cat bones there (cause the bones were too big to belong to a rat..)
locked up and brought stuff back

thats the end of it..
the pictures above are:
from left to right

old kitchen counter
old study room table
old study room shelves
me looking around in the kitchen
me and my younger sister in the living room
view of kitchen from living room
well thats it for now

xoxo
charmainechew

exams done!! hurrah!!

2008-09-06T21:11:00.005+08:00
oh yeah!!
i'm done with my exams
and yuna ito which is likethe only japanese singer i listen to has
1)released a new single
and is
2)turning 25 soon

this is her album cover
(i did not put my tcoc there cause this image may contain copyrights..)

her new single is called miss you
it is nice and very addictive!!
here is the link from youtube
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mPQdYJrfqSg

it has been 2 years since she entered the music industry..

i love most of her songs, and her voice is so angelic..

she started of as reira in nana the movie
it was thanks to my friend (duckie and yi mei)

truly amazing amazing singer!!

anyway.. i got a new phone
its a nokia 5000
but i am kinda upset cause it has only got 12MB memory..
***most of this memory is being used up by the many protected files that come included with nokia phones

for example:
the phone may have 12 MB memory but
the themes folder itself has already used 741KB
graphics: 528KB
tones:1.2KB
and so on

so all together i only have a total of
7.2MB worth of free space to use
which really isn't much

yuna ito's single (miss you) for example is like
10.0MB
confirm cannot fit my phone

but i love the design as it is uber thin
and the buttons are nice and the camera is better (to me)
cause i used to have a k300i sony ericsson phone

besides that..
there really is nothing much

but no matter what i still wanna get my dream phone
that is w999i by Sony Ericsson

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speaking of which..
my next post maybe about
people is want to say sorry to the most
its just something i have to let go of

if you don't know yet
i hardly ever apologize for my actions
and i follow my emotions the most especially when i'm mad or angry

so its kinda like cleansing to me..
wathc out
you maybe 1 of them
if you do know any of them..
plz tell them abt is

again its a MAYBE!!!

signing off
xoxo
charmainechew

*update..
this post to say sorry has been removed..
due to personal reasons of the author
no other details will be released..

xoxo
charmainechew

coming soon to stress you up!!

2008-08-29T07:31:00.003+08:00

i think everyone knows what this thing to instantly stress you up is
students still experience it
learning is a process where you absorb as much as you can and try to understand the underlying meaning within the words then find a way to remember what you just learnt
time heals all wounds and erases most of our data in our brain unless we constantly refresh and revise and re-everything
exams are always like killers stalking you
they are good to some but bad to most of us,
they are lurking around always
and you know they are there
but you have not clue as to when they will strike and possibly kill you
their presence spreads across nations and school
fear strikes everyone of us
how do we avoid this fear and defend ourselves against these ruthless beings you ask?
easy
be a GEEK!!
but are you willing to??
i am not
i rather shake like a leaf in a breeze than be like them..
well exams are getting near for me..
study is all i need..
you will see me not as geeky as i can be..
but no worries..
i will jump back to cold hearted old me soon...
got to go.. my geeks are calling
xoxo
studygeek
charmainechew

24 hours a day for each of us

2008-08-24T14:44:00.003+08:00

saturday was a day where i did the below

i woke up early

i took a bus back to my hometown

went home

went to jusco with my sisters

watched walle

went back home

had a bad headache

slept extremely early

thats it in short

now do you see how 24 hours could end so fast eventhough at some moments of the day, it seems like forever had passed and time should have passed faster..

everyone has 24 hours in a day, just how productive are we in using those 24 hours?

i woke up at 7am on a saturday and soon it was 8pm and i took my bath, just cause of the headache, i took a nap at 9pm, and there goes saturday

come sunday and now its 2.50pm, thats fast huh?

well now my blog is considered young still but i have about 14 posts

not including this one

think about it

xoxo

charmainechew

heroic stranger

2008-08-22T00:13:00.004+08:00

On a Wednesday evening, there were two girls who were not stranger to each other and they were walking at the side of a busy road. One was the older while the other was the younger of the two.

They were on the way to a journey by foot which they knew. But what they did not know will soon be realized as danger to them both.

While they were walking, they younger of the two decided to bail on the journey but the older of the two was determine to continue on. Try as she may, the younger one could not convince the older half to turn back and end their journey for now.

Finally giving up, they both went their separate ways with angered souls possessing them both, the younger one soon came to a mud pile, she was accustomed to seeing these so she took a step on it so as to cross it, she was taken aback when the mud pile turned out to be deeper than she thought.

It was there that she lost one of her slippers, she continued on the search to return home. Holding what was left of her slipper with her as well as her umbrella and phone in her pocket; she braced on and took a step forward. Not a moment too late as rain soon begun to pour on her weak soul.

She walked and walked on till she saw a junction; she decided to take the one on the right since she could see more familiar building within the horizon of that path. With each step, her heels started to blister but she told herself that it will all be ok as soon as she returned home. This was when she decided that she no longer needed the slipper and threw it aside.

When she finally realized that the path she took was in fact a dead end and that she had wasted her time walking, she turned around and walked back to the junction disheartened and with broken spirits.

Her whole foot was in pain now as each step got slower and the pain got more and more unbearable, it was there at the very junction that she stumbled upon a stranger. He asked her where was she going and even thought he had two kids with him to take care of, he took her home, he found out about her sister as well and offered to show her the way home.

He left his eldest daughter with him and soon went to look for her. There she was, cold, shoeless and left with only a pinch of hope that her sister will return safe and sound. By now, they both were chatting and although their age difference was about 10 years, they hit off right away.

Time passed by quickly in those times and they were soon on their way back, no other way of seeing each other ever again, the younger half was thankful of the happening that she had gone through, tragic in some moments but happy at last

It started as a day like any other but ended like a day she had never been through, suddenly, all the pain and suffering in the cold seemed precious, and suddenly, a strangers heart seemed so warm even in cold weathers as such, and it was right there on that day and days after that the stranger held a supreme place in the heart of the younger one, he was soon to be forgotten but for now, let him remain a hero for how long it may be.

The two girls will eventually return to their normal routines and what not but at least this story is written in black and white, with this, they will never forget.

xoxo
charmainechew

i am waiting for you (picture mode)

2008-08-20T10:41:00.010+08:00

me and emma in the hospital toilet..

baby sister and me in the toilet (close up)

at the toilet entrance

me alone cam whore while baby sister go toilet (door behind)

at thow lee

thats all
xoxo
charmainechew

i'm waiting for you

2008-08-20T10:11:00.002+08:00
this post was supposed to be posted on monday..
but i was just too lazy to do so
and i have not picnik-ed my photos then
this time there is something wrong with picnik so i cannot put my
butterfly symbol..
sighs..

well this monday.. i was still back in my hometown and my sister and mum had to go to ipoh specialist for their eye check up (i didn't have to, still perfect vision)

i have not been to ipoh specialist for like the longest time and this was like the first time i'm entering since its construction

i gotta say
it looked like a hotel or something
i was amazed
so i took a photo
which kinda scare my little sister
she asked me in a weird tone
"what are you doing???"
i said
"take for yi to see la!!"

weird

after we took our numbers, we went to the market first..
then to thow lee cause my mum had to get some stuff for the notice borad she had to do at school..
and my sister got like some boa feathers and just lay it over her shirt
fast way to look classy..
huhu... but it was cute n all..
oh ya we got cheated at thow lee..
no la.. its just we didn't see the price properly
my sister bought a bag of heart shaped soaps and it was written there RM0.50 (x 10)
you see.. we thought the (x10) means they had 10 soaps there..
so it was actually RM5.00
HAHAHA!!!

then we finally went back home cause later 3.00 pm only their turn to see the doc..

later at 3.00pm we were still on the way..
and then whaen we reached the hospital..
we had to wait so long..
lucky we bought some books to read and all so not so bad la..
most of the time.. haiz..
me n my sister cam whore a little bit la

so we went to the toilet..
wow!!! sibeh nice man!!
so snap snap lo!!

most of the time we were just sitting down and just having a competition as to whose bum will get numb first... jkjk!!

finally at about 6pm or so..
we left the hospitel (hospital+hotel)

then we went to carin in 1st garden
and i really wanted a specs but what for right
haiz..
well its just that specs are like a fashion thingy now
so much so you wish
that there was something wrong with your eyes to say the least
just to get 1..

i know i do!! haha

ego :choi!! ur vision so nice.. you wish this things for wat?? siao ar??
me : ya..

haha... well anyway that was on monday

tuesday i woke up and my mum was cooking lunch (no la.. she cook soup so have to make earlier so she wake up earlier to make the soup)
**mum woke up earlier then me n emma la of coz!!

so i had lunch at home and later went to the bus station and arrived at kampar

and you know what i saw??
when i reach home.. (kampar)
my room was so hot snd stuffy
beh tahan la wei!!
and my sister still sleeping like a piggy..

haiz..
well i'll post the photos in the next post.. around today cause now still picnik-ing it all..

xoxo
charmainechew

danity kane (and dirty things) *wink

2008-08-13T15:58:00.005+08:00

just found it and i have to say

love the video

love the song

and most of all

love them all...

ghosts,ghouls and things that go bump in the night..
last night i went to this talk that was organized by the christian fellowship in my college
normally i do not go for these stuff cause i think that
(sorry first ar cause i know i will offend some christians)
when you all christians sing your worship songs and all...
just seems as though you all are
kinda
HIGH ON STUFF LA!!!
*sorry

but anyway..
i went last night with my sister
and the thing that attracted me the most was what the talk was about
(if y'll still dun get it... so slow... its about ghost la)

well we listened and all la
*no i'm not gonna tell you what he said about those things cause you didn't go for what?
plus its too long la ok?

then when finish the talk we left lo..
den we went up block A and jump...
so i'm actually dead but still blogging...

sacarstic... no la

we went home and to summarize up what we did
we sleep
with the lights on la...
girls scared ok??

anyway... around 2 to 3am
i woke up
went pee pee
den
cannot sleep

IMAGINATION TOO WILD!!!
THINKING THE DIRTY STUFF
OOI... NOT PORN OK??
EFF U LA!!

so go online till about 7am like dat
den my sister woke up and take over la
i just sleep..
wake up 10.30am

damn scared man i tell you
so dun go and listen to any talks about the
paranormal at night
will scare you untill like me

well...
thursday is the
*magical* day la

so today wednesday got pasar malam again
wah!!! buy food like orang asing
buy all...
huhu!!! jkjk

okok...
thats all for now... later maybe got la..
night market..
wait for me ok???

i will come
maybe...

xoxo
charmainechew

advertisement no. 1

2008-08-12T14:03:00.014+08:00
before you go on..
i recomend you use internet explorer instead of
mozilla firefox
cause mozila cannot see all the photos

today i am damn free so
i stumbled into this website last night with my sister
http://www.picnik.com/

it edits photos online
so make sure you have a strong connection or else you have to wait long time
which is ok for me today since i'm so free and class is in a bit later..

so i decided to edit some photos
and here they are according to categories
cause i'm freakishly organized..
can???

Jeffery's party

both edited by shuyi (http://www.blogger.com/www.customisedcuteness.blogspot.com)

edited by yours truly
mine has the TCOC words in to
TCOC stands for (The Chronicles Of Charmaine)

emma (http://www.emmachewsj.blogspot.com/)

all edited by me...

thats all folks...
why don't you give it a try??

xoxo..
charmaine

s is for stupidity

2008-08-11T23:57:00.000+08:00
blurass

have you ever had one of those days where you just seem so blur that everything that you could possibly do right turned out to be done so wrongly that you cannot believe that it was you who did it in the first place?

i find myself having those days on weekends when i am back it my hometown

i'm still trying to fiure out why

see i did not return to my hometown this weekend and everything was fine and generally ok

and lo and behold

i still do not know why!!!

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ping pong cancelled stupid a**holes

well which brings me to the topic of my ping pong practice which was cancelled but

little me over here did not get the news

along with some other friends

i suppose you can guess what happened from there on

we all waited like stupid idiots

waiting for the coach

all sitting at the canteen and filled with anxiety and guilt that was never really gone

then someone very smart went and check the notice board to find that practice was cancelled

sibeh paiseh lo!!!

but still a little happy cause we don't have to sweat like pigs and all

but f**k

have to replace it la..

its gonna be like longer lo...

really not looking forward to it at all..

i tell you ar can?

that place ar..

you step in and its like mojave desert-ish

the heat just rushes towards you

den later you gotta do warm ups

and run round the badminton court

for ten leg burning rounds...

not walk ar!!!

RUN like a dog chasing you kinda RUN!!

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well i still have not posted pictures on my previous enrty yet...

no USB how???

haiz...

tomorrow again procrastinate la...

i am a procrastinating bitch right!!!

ok la... i think you all damn bored di la cause this post i think is the longest and damn boring summore right??

you all think i'm boring right???

ok fine..

end here can???

xoxo...

nightz...

hungry ghost festival

2008-08-11T20:51:00.004+08:00

randomness contest..
hahahahahahahaha..

what age were you when your parents told you about the hungry ghost festival?
i cannot really remember my age when my dad told me about it but i know it was during my primary school years

i still remember how he told us
we (me n my sisters) were in the car on the way back from dinner (i think!!)
and then he started to tell us to sleep early on that night (i cannot remember what day or date was it)
as we were little kids
we naturally asked why should we do so

and we had this conversation (according to memory only)

dad: you dunno why ar?
us:dunno
dad:its hungry ghost festival la.
us:what is that?
dad:its the time when ghost come out from hell (sort of like a day off for them) and disturb humans
us:really ar dad?
dad:ya.. the ghost the tongue all long long one and all got blood.. then they will come and disturb us late at night then in the morning... they have to go back to hell.. if they stay here they will all die from the sunlight..
mum:William (my dad) ar don't scare them la.. if not they cannot sleep then how?
dad:laughs!!

i still remember
that night... all 3 of us slept in our parents room..
the whole family watched tele for a while then we soon slept

then it was about 3am or so when my stupid bowels had to go
imagine me
a little kid that was just introduced to hungry ghost festival and was so scared of basically everything that night
and the last thing you need was your bowel telling you to wake up

finally at around 6am.. my mother woke up and just calmly walked to the toilet..
soon after...
a line of 3 girls were formed..
turns out
all of us (we 3 kids) were too afraid to go to the bathroom and were secretly effin our bowels for making us wanna go when we dare not even move

we told our dad and we just laughed it off

now as i grow up
i still do not understand this festival that much
as always i just know it involves ghosts
and lots of it

for more info on this particular festival
check out this link
http://www.chinadaily.com.cn/english/doc/2003-08/07/content_359335.htm

well... i'm gonna go now..

Happy Chinese Halloween
xoxo
charmaine!!!

08.08.08

2008-08-09T01:21:00.000+08:00

cool lo!!!

the opening ceremony for the beijing olympics 2008 really lived up to its expectations..
everything was just magnificent and i was just wondering how they do the special effects and fireworks ..

well i was bored when all the countries were walking out and all cause that is the most boring part of all the opening ceremonies..

have to wait damn long lo..

this time they got like 240 countries together so you know the wait la..

other stuff!!!

i went to the night market again this week and i bought like 2 short shorts there yesterday..
then walk walk around bandar baru kampar dere and
bought like a gold ballerina shoes...
love it to death...

the shoes were the last surviving 1 and it only cost RM12.00 lo

i tried the shoes and i saw below tat it used to be RM40.00

RM28.00 cheaper lo...

i'll try to upload the photoes of the items as soon as i can la...

damn tired now

xoxo...

byes...

annoying!!

2008-08-05T14:09:00.000+08:00

get outta my head!!!

do you know what is annoying to me??
i don't think so
am i right??

well its not actually what is it that annoys me
rather who is it
its a person by the name of jay chew kah wai (http://profiles.friendster.com/48256110)

idiotic S.O.A.B!!!

this person claims to have a girlfriend yet continously ask me and my sister
(refer to partner for life to understand better)
to go out for a drink
fine... i entertained him for a while but he is just too much now

when i'm having classes..
he will text me
whan i'm having a discussion
he will text me
when i'm sleeping he will call or text me
when i'm having lunch with my baby sister and mum
he yet again texts me

so finally i was so fed up
i left him a message in friendster

last night
i was struggling to sleep since it was such a hot night..
it took me 45 minutes to finally snooze off
only to be awakened by jay calling
i hung up
and he called again
i shouted at the reciever
"hello i'm trying to sleep here la wei!!!"
and hung up

i again tried to sleep but he text me saying he had a gf and blah blah blah...
(er since when did i ask?? and if you really did have a gf!!! DEN STOP OOGLING OVER US COLLEGE GIRLS WHOSE SISTERS YOU MET ONLINE AT FRIENDSTER YOU FREAK!!!)

yo a**hole jay!!! if you're reading this!!
i got something to say to you..
get a real life and stop cheating on ur self proclaimed imaginary or not gf!!
cause she no matter how bad your choice was and is.(which is pretty bad) it is still an effin shemale!!!
(refers to a natal male who has partially undergone
transition to female, has breasts, but still has male genitals)
courtesy of wikepedia.org

don't like the way i am
den leave...
i didn't ask you in!!!
you can go anytime
no!! you know what??
its better you go before i ask you to!!

charmaine madly storms outta here
but still leaves
xoxos
for other readers

paint, paint, paint for 3 weekends

2008-08-04T08:28:00.000+08:00

last 3 weekends when i returned back home from college
i spend most of my sundays painting deviders for my community..
dun believe me???

why???
fine
proof below!!!

ya... thats me alright... believe it... huhu

well we finally finished painting and i am so proud of it... know why??? i was the only girl to join an all male team in doing this for 3 weeks non stop... cool huh??? (sexist)

aiyah no la...
just wanna say... whatever guys can do..
girls can do too
maybe not as fast or as good as them but we still are capabe of doing practically most of what they can...
thats girl power

more painting pictures below:

thats all for now...
xoxo

madness!!

2008-07-31T14:48:00.000+08:00

omfg...

i am just so annoyed and angry now...

i did the whole entire dialog for japanese but then it had to be edited as it was not suitable..

fine...

we discussed that one...

i type everything and print it out oso..

den oso cannot cause some words we not yet learn.. ok fine again

last minute... end up i do all by myself..

when the lines that need changing had to be changed right away you just sit there and laugh

ok fine... i laugh with you

but i still thinking...

you never even contribute any idea at all...

you just keep talking...

finally i had no more patience so

i just wrote the whole thing by myself again...

and pass it up..

i really do not think that it is fair...

AT ALL!!!

and now i have to type the new script for you all over again

just so you can remember what to say for presentation in 3 weeks

arghhh!!!

i am so totally blowing my top now

ps: did you know i have not eaten my lunch oso...

all just so i can finish this 1 assignment!!!

GOD DAMNNIT!!!

EFF YOU!!

charmaine angrily logs off
!!!!!!!!!

yummy nap

2008-07-30T22:35:00.000+08:00

HEART-ING!!

huhu... guess what???

the 3 days till i love you gal that was my friend??

erm... i am like her gal again..

*but the i-am-forever-a-bitch-and-you-can't-do-anything-about-it-so-live-with-it gal is still on my to shoot list..

nightlife yummies.

today went to the night market to grab foodies for dinner

me n my sis went like so early around 5 or so

half of the stalls were not even open

we walked a bit and bought din din

*i bought (not real picture)

hamburger

fried rice

bubble tea (mocha)

yumm..
after that
burp-a-mania!!!

gotta get my beauty sleep now...

goodnight all my viewing prince and princesses

xoxo
zzzzz

Partners for life

2008-07-30T17:25:00.004+08:00

hmm...
kinda wondering... hehe..
do you know i have a twin sister???
i'm the one on the right and my twin sister is the one on the left..
huhu...

i love nothing more than diamonds especially this 1 below...

i want you babe...

come to me please..

quickie..

i really have to finish my japanese assignment and i am so tired..

i have to force myself cause i gotta pass it up tomorrow..

just let me nap a while.. it can wait..i am a procrastinating bitch..

big time...

music honey

my sister got jason mraz's lucky (ft colbie calliat) and mariah careys bye bye

love those 2 songs now as well as

princess RiRi'sdisturbia...

totally rockin..

wait somethings coming up...

yawnz babes...

i really need to catch a million winks..

yawn

xoxo
charmaine

durian love

2008-07-30T07:31:00.000+08:00

wondering now

when will people stop being so silly and childish and so everything i hate!!!
i mean for real
i had this friend that met this guy who is like my sisters ex and all and they were dating when they just started to be together for like 3 days, they are like huggin and major public display of affection.. (eew...)

so i broke my friendship with her but i was fine cause i was not that affected so bad since i was never that attached to her anyways...

and my other friend turned out to be this biggest bitch in the history of my life... i still am not sure as to what she did but from what i hear so far.. damn it... i still cannot believe that she was my friend.. or i even accepted that b***h in my e***n life

like everyone in my life is just failing slowly.. i really f*****g hate this...
anyways i suppose its just me now all on my own or something...
i don't know who is wrong now
either they got like something wrong or its just me lo..

on to happier stuff

well happier stuff includes the smelliest smelling fruit in the world
(but i love the smell so its ok for me)

last night... i was washing the dishes and then i heard a sound (tong tong)
i thought it was just me so i just leave it alone den it came again... i listen properly this time and i was right

there was someone at the door so i opened the door and my neighbour was there
he gave us like a bog box of durians...

sadly...

i had to come back to kampar today so i didn't really get the chance to eat his nice durians..
..T_T..
hopefully when i go back this week... my family would have left some for my mouth to eat lo...
thats all for now..

charmaine logging off
xoxos